Public profile of: chookie67

Email	betz.67@hotmail.com
Gender	Female
Age	41
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Member since	15. May 2007
Last online	25. Jul 2008

I am 40 years old, married with 2 beautiful boys - 21 and 17. My hubbie and me have been married for 20 years and together for 23.
I have struggled with depression for many years, but only in the last 10 years actually acknowledged it.
My dad, who i love dearly and was very close too, died 17 years ago when my youngest son was 3 weeks old. I reallly dont think I have ever dealt with him leaving me. I was in hospital at the same time that he died, so in one respect, at least I could be with him.
I think my depression has alot to do with me being adopted and the yearning for my birth mother to acknowledge me. She has put a veto on my file and even when she dies, i cannot find any informaiton out about her.
I am pretty close with my mum (adoptive) but have never been as close as I was with my dad (adoptive).
I seem to struggle with being accepted. I try to please everyone so they will like me, and sometimes do whatever it takes to get that.
My spiral starting twirling about 7years ago when I did something really really stupid and to this day i honestly don't know why I did it. Sorry i just don't want to mention what i did at this time. I suffered the consequences pretty damn hard and to this day i still reckon I was not completely responsible for all of the events that happened. Yes what i did was wrong and I did my time for what i did.
My family, hubbie and kids suffered dearly for my weakness. Seeing my hubbie and two children sobbing as I was taken away will stay with me forever.