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Gender	Female
Age	25
Location	Shepparton
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Member since	1. Feb 2005
Last online	12. Jun 2008

mmm gees what can I say apart from the fact i have major depression and an eating disorder (anorexia nervosa). oh yeah and post traumatic stress disorder due to being repeatedly raped over a 12 month period when I was 19. I'm now 25. Yeah still haven't been able to cope with that.
Recently come off Lexapro- hanging in there but probably have to go back on it, i'll see how I go.

Doing better than when i first joined this site, but it's always a daily battle

Date	Title	Reads	Comments
22/04/2008	VICTIMISED-VERY ANGRY!!!!!!!!!	120	6
13/04/2008	cracked it with Psychlologist!!!!	68	4
09/04/2008	meaningless existance	63	2
09/04/2008	losing my grip on life	51	2
07/04/2008	Can't cope any more	69	3
06/04/2008	did something stupid!!	105	7
02/04/2008	inspiration (TO EVERYONE)	73	2
17/03/2008	the good and the bad	44	2
13/03/2008	blankness	51	3
06/03/2008	freaking out!!!!!!	87	3
29/02/2008	too hard	278	4
28/02/2008	on a downer	66	2
26/02/2008	S**t does happen	58	3
12/02/2008	worst call ever!!!! extremely upset	93	3
06/02/2008	feeling horrible	49	2
05/02/2008	the not knowing is the worst	37	1
31/01/2008	can't decide	55	3
30/01/2008	Death Trap	57	3
29/01/2008	wide awake all night- ararhhh so annoying	74	4
27/01/2008	don't know what to think	72	5
25/01/2008	feeling like ending it	101	6
21/01/2008	crying	65	3
15/01/2008	good and bad	66	3
11/01/2008	just worked 17hrs	55	2
07/01/2008	my partners concerned about me	99	5
04/01/2008	hope this is a better year	49	2
16/12/2007	still awake	46	1
13/12/2007	two long weeks left	52	1
08/12/2007	hanging on	48	2
14/11/2007	doing better	44	1
26/07/2007	back in its hands	74	3
13/05/2007	the past is pushing me away	98	3
06/05/2007	there's no meaning to my life	93	1
02/05/2007	life continues to throw in hurdles	108	2
16/01/2007	the good and the bad	104	4
29/12/2006	trying to stay on track	103	3
27/12/2006	more and more hurdles	103	1
15/12/2006	from bad to worse	117	3
06/11/2006	my problems continue...	141	4
17/05/2006	tired of being tired	134	3
17/05/2006	hard to hold back the emotions	150	4
15/05/2006	my body is failing	123	2
28/03/2006	when life seems like it's slipping away	154	4
15/03/2006	have I made the right choice?	170	3
12/01/2006	finally some answers at least	190	5
11/01/2006	doubting myself	222	4
03/01/2006	it pays to be pushy	189	4
02/01/2006	so much to do so little time	178	2
01/01/2006	down but trying to be happy	198	5
31/12/2005	last entry for this year	173	4
30/12/2005	neally a year to the day	203	3
27/12/2005	why's it so hard to hold on?	173	1
24/12/2005	full on	203	4
30/11/2005	couldn't stand it any more	206	2
29/11/2005	when will it end	195	2
20/11/2005	so tired	201	3
07/11/2005	still low, can't keep up with my hectic life! & Poem	206	5
04/11/2005	what next? it's the unknown that gets me down	203	3
01/11/2005	good news one day bad news the next	212	5
26/10/2005	another blow	284	11
22/10/2005	doing better	207	4
18/10/2005	even help isn't enough	218	7
17/10/2005	barely hanging on	253	2
14/10/2005	Update	249	1
13/10/2005	Major CRISIS point	261	4
11/10/2005	24hrs later	238	3
10/10/2005	unsettled	272	9
09/10/2005	trying to remain strong- and poem	289	5
08/10/2005	feeling lost and a poem	282	3
07/10/2005	still in crisis mode	296	5
06/10/2005	on a downer	264	3
05/10/2005	never ending	284	5
04/10/2005	thankyou- it means a lot!	273	5
03/10/2005	hanging on by a thread	288	7
28/09/2005	fatigued and overwhelmed. Hospital?	275	5
26/09/2005	wow it's 2am- and note to becca81	298	2
25/09/2005	another poem- my life	263	2
24/09/2005	tiredness and depression R overwhelming	274	1
23/09/2005	need the release	257	1
22/09/2005	hopefully starting to get back on track	255	3
18/09/2005	confusing thoughts and a poem	269	2
17/09/2005	sadness continues...	250	4
16/09/2005	another poem, and thanks	317	4
13/09/2005	trying not to fall into pieces: and poem	315	9
12/09/2005	my thoughts, my life	271	4
11/09/2005	continuous hurt	299	5
11/09/2005	just too much	258	2
08/09/2005	finally some good news	273	5
04/09/2005	Trying to keep on keeping on	275	5
24/08/2005	what a day	295	3
18/08/2005	my update- struggling but hanging in	302	5
27/07/2005	a step forward and maybe some back	310	3
21/07/2005	tradgedy	402	6
19/07/2005	Bad to worse!!!	354	3
15/07/2005	finally some good news	354	3
14/07/2005	why cant they just understand!!!	353	0
13/07/2005	wasted time	334	1
12/07/2005	today is slightly better	348	3
11/07/2005	indescrible feelings	398	3
08/07/2005	can't handle it any more	406	4
07/07/2005	lost and found	360	2
05/07/2005	sick of the downs, where are the ups?	370	3
27/06/2005	broken promises	384	6
25/06/2005	overwhelming	378	6
06/05/2005	busy busy	418	5
02/05/2005	My apologies	454	5
29/04/2005	Drained	409	5
28/04/2005	sometimes little things get me down	428	5
28/04/2005	a phone call	414	2
26/04/2005	a step forward?	489	6
26/04/2005	not fair	434	4
23/04/2005	Numb	461	5
22/04/2005	frozen	492	4
21/04/2005	another one	425	6
20/04/2005	changes	440	6
19/04/2005	unknown	446	4
16/04/2005	just not sure	434	4
15/04/2005	ignored	440	4
14/04/2005	short lived	440	2
13/04/2005	needed a release	476	2
12/04/2005	no meaning	446	4
10/04/2005	severe pain	483	1
04/04/2005	out of control	472	6
02/04/2005	another day	451	2
01/04/2005	what do you think?	444	1
30/03/2005	how long till...	436	2
27/03/2005	living life from a distance	478	3
20/03/2005	whats the point	461	1
17/03/2005	when there seems no way out	491	2
07/02/2005	why do I feel this way	536	2
06/02/2005	to confused to think of one	533	1

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