Sleep and Money
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Written by babz Tuesday, 9 February 2010 00:29
Went to a random GP yesterday to get some sleeping tablets. She was running 45 minutes late so I sat there waiting, just randomly bursting into tears for no reason whatsoever. When she finally called me in I tried to give as little away as possible, just that I wasn't sleeping, but she kept pushing me to find out why, so I ended up giving her the whole story, crying the whole time. She got worried so told me to call the CAT team. I lied and told her I had but that they told me to call my psychologist. I had actually called my psychologist but he didn't call back cause it was a Sunday. Then she called Mum who called me and I refused to talk to her. Went home, deadlocked the doors, locked the bolts attached to front and back doors, locked the chains, turned my phone off and went to bed. I just wanted to be left alone. Thankfully the sleeping tablets she prescribed gave me a little bit of sleep. Feeling slightly less tearful today which is a start. Forced myself to study to keep my mind off all the bad thoughts. Only 3 weeks worth of stuff to go, and considering that it only took me 3 days to do the last 3 weeks worth, it shouldn't take long providing I can keep shoving back the tears till I see the psych on Wednesday.
Money is becoming an issue though. I am on disability pension and am struggling. There are things like rent, utilities, etc. then on top of that late last year I had to replace my car cause it would have cost the same amount to fix my old one, last week I had to replace my computer cause it died of old age and I need it for uni, and today I had to pay the dentist $155, then when I got home got my bill from VicRoads for my car registration which is nearly $700, plus my uni fees which will be about $2000. Got no idea where I'm gonna find the money!!