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Ima feeling empty and hollow today. Like I cant concertrate or think. I feel like Ima drugged up to the point where Ima just staring into space. Like nothing matterz to me. Ive slepted in till 12 noon today, and Ima planning to sleep more for the reason Ima working night shift tonight. Ima qualified assistant nurse at a retirement village and I love working there. Itz basically the only reason that Ima still alive. That Ima still here. Itz a reason however everyday I just dont care. I dont want to talk or see anyone for the reason that I might have outbursts and that I have been hurt and let down by everyone I know. I want to be alone for the reason that I dont want to get hurt again and again. I expect too much and I just expect anything at all which is not good so therefore I dont expect anything at all from anyone. Work is my life and thatz all.... I have no energy to sit up or do anything... I just want to sleep and never wake up...