Attepting to write diary entries more often again
A page in the diary "Life is a bitch at the best of times"
Written by Bassman Monday, 8 February 2010 14:15
Oh I don't know what to do from here now
The trigger for depression seems to be under control agaiin and yet for some reason I am still very depressed. The extrordinary lengths I have gone to to get my diabetes under control are now starting to get out of hand. By out of hand I mean It is only monday and this week I have already managed to clock up 50+ kms on the bike and I am still battling to keep my sugar levels up high enough. Yet another Hypo last night. It is getting ridiculous. It has now got to the point where I have eliminated one incection a day so far I am not sure if this is going to work but it has so far.
I hate the way my body works or fails to work or is so unreliable at times. I supose I am wondering why is my body so difficult to control such a simple thing. The form for the last set of bloods I had done had the comment "Very poorly controlled Diabetes". Yet I amtrying my hardest to do all the right things and I still can't seem to get the thing to balance. EG no short acting isulin before breakfast and yet the levels before lunch were 4.6mmol/l. admittededly I had nothing at morning tea either but that is because I no soon got home fom my morning ride and I had to get back on the bike and ride into town again to do errands again.
Oh well I supose I will keep trying
Bassman