My story

Lonliness and Abandon

Written by Shozna

I look around me and see people staring back at me,
They’re staring at my face, they’re staring at my clothes and at my feet.

What do their smiling faces say? Is it all a lie?
Do they feel the pain as well, that tears me up inside?

What do they look for when they search around blankly?
Don’t they realize that they need to look to eternity?

My God, my God, I’m looking but I don’t know if you see.
Do you stare past me too, looking at my face, my clothes, my feet.

Or do you listen, do you hear my desperate cry?
Does the pain I feel bring a tear to your eye?

And yet my life it is so barren and desert.
Where do you hide in the empty fields of my despair?

I long to feel you touch, your strength and feel your peace.
When will you come and take me to eternity?

And when the arrows come and pierce my frail flesh,
Where are you then, O God, when wounds are formed afresh?

Where is my armour, my breastplate, helmet and my belt?
Can’t you see I’m incapable of helping myself?

So now I turn to you, I put forward my plea.
O please, O please, O Lord, don’t you dare abandon me.

And when I’m through this storm, then maybe I will see.
That through it all, you never once left me.