Empty Ache
A page in the diary "The Words Behind My Tears"
Written by kcdbooks 25. May 2005 08:53 PM
Why is it that I can do all of the right things and still get into trouble?
Why is it that no matter how hard I try, I am still in trouble?
Why can't everyone just leave me alone?
I am tired of being picked on, tired of being the butt of everyone else's joke, tired of having to hear it from everyone else.
A necklace was taken off me by a teacher today, yet no where in the rules does it say that they can take it away - sure, I wasn't supposed to be wearing it, but they can't take it away. The necklace had true sentimental value, and I'm not sure that the teacher respects that. It makes me so mad. I didn't even realize that it was on, I simply hadn't taken it off after last night. I try to be such a good person, but nothing ever turns out right. I think it important for a school to recognize the talents that we each individual has, instead of trying to turn us into people who all look and act the same. I don't think a school should treat individuals this way - it is wrong.
I am working as hard as I can to keep my head above water, but I seem to be drowning in that dark blue sea. No one seems to understand the effort that it takes to go from day to day. No one seems to understand that I am always tired and I still can't fall asleep. No one seems to understand that I am so hurt by all of this, and I am doing the best that I can.
Why can't someone just appreciate me for who I am, instead of always picking the bad bits and hammering them into my head? Why can't I ever do the right thing? Why can't I just switch off and ignore this?
Deppies, life can be so unfair...there is a tear shed for each of you who has been treated unfairly.
kcdbooks