stagnant
A page in the diary "My Dairy"
Written by cristina 28. May 2007 10:46 PM
my life is on pause. a miserable, slow, excruiating pause.
uni life...crumbled. do i blame filipe? i do. i blame myself for letting him get to me, for letting him ruin what i'd built for years.
my father has broken the internet connection and two computers in my house accidentally. this computer is being borrowed, but as a result i haven't been able to do uni work even if i wanted to. this has caused me incredible stress and many tears - they simply don't understand and continue to stress me out and yell at me on top of everything.
friends...what friends? ive shut myself off. the good friend i made at uni, is fading because i am not showing up - i am failing.
still no job. still no life.
still with him.
still the pain, aggression, tears... it's all there.
i am a miserable pathetic mess incapable of being anything other than what i am. that's what he told me. that's the truth.