so many issues!
A page in the diary "My Dairy"
Written by cristina 10. Aug 2004 09:23 PM
on account of having issues with school work, my actual work and family i also have some very severe issues with friends. every aspect of my life is tarnished in some way. i am actually in the process of writing my friend "stef" a letter about how i feel.. though i dont know if that will work out well. but if i dont do it now, ill never get around to it so i might as well hav a go. as for "elli" well i miss her i guess... i miss the old her. i dont know when thats going to be sorted out. why should i make the effort? why SHOULDN'T i make the effort? i've become so weak and too proud for my own good... i should just release myself and do what I want. in fact im going to call elli right now. fuck the barriers- rules were meant to be broken, barriers were freakin meant to be broken! and enough have been broken around me so why cant i break a few while im at it?
wish me luck
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rang ellie; went reasonably well though i had to put on a bit of a happy facade in front of her. social issues arent really dealt out but friendship is more stable now. have good intentions for the future. have put off writing stef the letter, elli is my first priority at the moment and elli is willing to make an effort for me as i am for her. collected my wallet which i lost ages ago and a woman found- got my money back as well as clothes voucher... financial things seem good. my work called about organising my pay, so yet again they're looking up. subject selection kind of looking up- ive chosen for year 11 but now i have to focus on year 12. need to organise lunch for friday.. shit.
in a way this is like a personal organizer for me! how convenient... not really:) my first smile of the whole bloody thing.