all jumbled up
A page in the diary "My Dairy"
Written by cristina 14. Mar 2007 04:43 PM
ive never been good at exiting my comfort zones, and i REALLY suck at adjusting to new environments. sure i'll put on a brave face, live it out, act as if everything is fine- or maybe sook a lot about it- but inside im perishing. uni.. i hate it..dont want to speak about it.
filipe, oh i love him so much with all my heart. however our closeness has evolved into a strange distance, i think from his behalf again. not sure what to do.
lately, even if things are fine between us, ill find myself doing stupid things to get his attention. ill hit him, or pick a fight, or cry over absolutely nothing so i can feel momentarily fulfilled by his affection and love. just goes to show how much it is lacking, otherwise.
god, i feel sick, unmotivated, lazy, tired, sad.
just really sad.