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Written by cristina 6. Jan 2007 01:00 AM

i tried. i really did. it just all came out over the phone. i told him so much, i know it wasn't in person but it's all i could handle at the moment.

i explained to him i couldnt handle his erratic temper, and that for one person to try and inflict pain 2 another, something is veri rong with that person and they're harbouring their own insecurities and difficulties with life. i told him how he'd ripped every inch of happiness from me and made me a lesser person, failing to see the best in me. i told him it kills me inside everytime he's cruel to me and i can't handle the montonous pain. i said that love was making me hold onto him and although i was scared of having a future without him, it was the only way.

he began apologising profusely and saying he just couldnt help his jealousy and temper. he said he'd never felt this way with anyone and it was tearing him apart and no one had never treated him so good, so he didn't know how to handle it. in other words, the pain others had forced upon him in the past, he was habitually forcing upon me- how the fuck is that fair??

he called me and i was a mess. he said he didn't want to let me go, so i siad i needed time away from him. he got upset and couldn't speak. so weak, vulnerable cristina told him that i'd see him tomorrow to discuss things. we all know it's just going to be the same process.

when will i learn? when he's fucken stripped me of every last inch of my spirit? when???

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Comments from the community:

Hi cristina

Please please stay away from him. He will tell you all the same lies, and if you take him back he will hurt you again, just because he knows he can.

He knows that he doesn't have to treat you better. He knows that you will say it's over and then take him back when he apologises.

For you own safety cristina, please break from him.

Be kind to yourself

Jenny

Written by Deleted_User, 6. Jan 2007 01:14 AM

simple... ignore his calls...dont see him tomorrow not that hard darlink... u seem smart and educated im sure you can handle this situation =] good luck! DONT BE A FOOL! hehehee lovink me xxx

Written by angelica, 6. Jan 2007 02:23 AM

Oh Cristina

Don't go and see him. Don't take his calls either. You deserve so much better than the way he treats you.

He treats you bad, you break it off, he calls you and apologises, you take him back. This scenario will happen time and time and time again for as long as you will let it.

Don't let him keep on hurting you. Make a clean break Cristina.

You are strong, you can do it. You deserve so much better. Take care of yourself.

Love hugs and support
from Shadowdancer xxx

Written by Deleted_User, 6. Jan 2007 11:13 AM

hi Cristina,

Well Im glad that its breakup time even if he's not :)

I think its best to avoid heavy conversations about breaking up with the 1 million reasons from when your cat died to when he forgot to wear the right coloured socks. after all we dont want to get sad and confused about it all. I think the old "we need space apart" (forever) or similar will be fine. :)

When he couldn't speak he was the weak and vulnerable one. you need to remember that he hurts you. he needs to learn. and this is what breaking up is about, he's going to feel the way he feels and you're going to walk away (forever). Tell him "I'm all booked up with my supermodel boyfriends over the next few weeks so im sorry we can't hang out. goodbye."

Remember that you are going to get positive relationships in your life.

Written by Deleted_User, 6. Jan 2007 11:25 AM

Hi cristina,

do not be his door mat....you're so young, there is so much time ahead of you, why do you want to be his emotional punching bag?

You deserve better, you will find your soul mate, he sure isn't the one.

Be strong stay away, he will never change..

Ciao Marie

Written by 1990, 6. Jan 2007 01:03 PM

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