Dear Daydreamer
A page in the diary "The Daydreaming Student of Life"
Written by a-Leng 3. Aug 2004 01:43 PM
Dear Daydreamer,
I don't know what the point of writing a 'Dear...' in these diary entries but I feel like being unconventional today.
So...being the online diary that you are, how is your existence? Mine could be improved. After all I am only a carbon based organism that lives and breathes.
Let me think, I think I mentioned two assignments that I haven't handed up, they're way overdue now and I still haven't completed them. It's strange, I feel like I'm trying but I'm actually not getting anything done. So maybe that's just how lazy I am, if that makes any sense. My psychiatrist Pin reckons that I am trying as hard as I can, and that it's just because of my illness that I'm unable to do anything to the best of my ability.
Speaking of illnesses...after reading one of the other diary entries I'm not even sure what I have is an illness or if it's just some twisted state of mind that I'm currently in. It's hard to say though...after all...he may have no idea what he's on about. On the other hand what he says is very convincing...it seems to make a lot of sense. He even referred to a depression expert who shares his viewpoints. I have to check up on the depression expert.
On the other hand the other thing I have to remember is that under clinical terms my illness is no longer what is known as depression but schizoaffective disorder which is meant to be a cross between schizophrenia and bipolar disorder. I hate my illness because I can't find anything about it at all. At all the websites I've been too not one mentioned it. Then again, I haven't even searched for it on any search engines. I'm such a baka (idiot).
Anyway, on a completely different topic, I'm currently listening to one of my favourite songs at the moment. It's called 'Love Story' and is a Japanese song from an anime called 'The Prince of Tennis'. It's not your typical J-pop song but it's interesting and nice in its own way.
Well, I'm blabbed on enough already so I bid you farewell Daydreamer and I hope your current situation in the world wide web is better than mine in the real world.
a-Leng