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Written by a-Leng 30. Jul 2004 10:22 PM

I've decided to write properly with capitals in the right places instead of writing all in lower case like I used to. It's a pretty bad habit to get into.

Anyway, I wonder...how should I be feeling at this moment in time? I mean...last week I actually decided to do a bit of exercise and walk for about and hour or so with my parents. So far I still feel a lack of energy which sucks but just after walking I feel alright.

This week I havn't had the time to go out walking because of schoolwork, damn schoolwork. I hate how the assignments are so difficult. I mean sure, they give us a lot of time to do it but what's the point if I can't find any information needed to complete the assignment! I mean I could have all the time in the world but without the info at my disposal I'm still screwed when it comes to finishing it. I'm talking about two assignments too! How the hell am I supposed to complete them on time? *sigh*

One of them was meant to be due today as a matter of fact. I still havn't finished it but I spoke to the school counsellor about it and since he knows of my 'condition' as he calls it he was willing to tell my teachers that I may need extra time to do assignments and such. He also suggested I take multivitamins to help with the energy but yeah...so because of my school counsellor I've got until Monday to hand it up. The other assignment is due on Monday too. I'm gonna be so busy this weekend.

And once again I ask myself, how should I feel today? Should I be disappointed at myself for not finishing the assignment on time and cause myself to have to do more work over the weekend? Should I be relieved that I get more time in the first place? Huh? In fact, should I even be wasting my time writing in Daydreamer when I should be doing my homework?

*sigh*

I've nothing else to write in here today.

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Comments from the community:

What are your assignments on?

Perhaps I can help?

Written by getting_there, 30. Jul 2004 11:46 PM

Hello a-Leng,

just some advice on finding information for assignments:

Firstly, reference librarians have helping ppl to find information on topics as a major part of their job description. So going to a good public library and asking a librarian for help might be useful. If you live in one of the state capitals the state library will be more comprehensive in its collection and there will also be more staff dedicated to helping ppl make use of the collection.

Secondly, as you're obviously online, complement paper material with what you can find online. If you use Google to search, are you using its full power? For examples of expert Google use, browse some of the answers at Google Answers where ppl are paid to answer research questions, and in giving their answers they also document how they went about finding the information.

Thirdly, and most importantly, maybe you are setting yourself too high standards. I'm guilty of doing that and then getting depressed because of it myself. Something I have learned a little bit later than most other ppl is that getting things done to a reasonable standard and handed in on-time is a large part of what school assignments are about. Getting the highest mark possible and doing work that convinces the teacher of your brilliance is really just cream on the cake when you are feeling well on top of things and perhaps also find the assignment genuinely interesting.

Anyway, good luck with it all.

Cheers,
Hazchem

Written by Anonymous, 1. Aug 2004 11:30 PM

Thanks guys for commenting,

The subjects I'm doing my assignments on are Child Studies and Tourism. Not your conventional school subjects, but that doesn't make them any less harder.

Thanks getting_there for offering to help and Hazchem for the good advice.

I've actually tried going to pretty good reference libraries myself but I find I get lost finding the information and the staff don't really help much. Maybe I'm just looking in the wrong places or something.

a-Leng

Written by a-Leng, 2. Aug 2004 01:29 AM

School does suck a-leng. I remember how stressful highschool could be. But stick at it. It all gets better when you go to uni. More free time, better libraries, and an even easier workload. Sure the essays get longer, but you're not having to hand in an assignment every 2 minutes. Just a thought - If a lack of infomation is troubling you try a net search of your local uni library.

Written by terminator, 3. Aug 2004 01:08 PM

Hi a-leng

I will let you into a little secret SCHOOL SUX :-)

Seriously.. I am now 53 years of age, left school because I hated it and up till now I have probably never stopped learning. My Dad often said to me that school is there to teach you to think.... I agree with him.. I have never stopped learning (as opposed to studying) see if you can spot the difference.

"drop in for a feed" is my crude invitation to share a meal with me..

Be good, live long... Phil

Written by PhilC, 5. Aug 2004 11:43 PM

Wanna know somthing? School has never been a happly place for alot of people, just be yourself. Don't have people forcing you into thing that you are not comfortable with!

Be yourself, the most tragic thing I seen is when people leave school most of them are like photocopies of someone else! People may give one a tough time for being themsleves but if your survie this school's peers having goes at you for been yourself you walk out of school been a orignal person, not a photocopy for someonelse!!

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