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Written by a-Leng 16. Sep 2005 07:43 PM

I'm so pissed off at one of my friends at the moment, over something that happened recently, and online too.

Basically I told my friend Anna about my illness about 3 years ago, when I started getting depressed. Anyway recently I told my friend Bill about the illness simply because he asked if I was 'mental' or not, and he suddenly flipped saying 'I wanted you to tell me ages ago, why did Anna have to be the one to tell me about it'.

The problem was, that at the time I was chatting to Bill online he was already pissing me off by swearing at me and saying nasty things about me. Then he threatened not to talk to me again if I ever told Anna what he just told me. I was going to do as he told me, but then I figured I needed to know why Anna told Bill in the first place.

So when Anna went online I asked her, then she called me on the phone and she told me that she told him back when she wasn't sure what was going on with me and wanted to help. I know her intentions were good at the time so I'm not mad at her and I told her this.

I just read an email from Bill saying that he was pissed off at me for telling Anna that she told him about my illness. This just made me even more pissed off at him because he doesn't even feel bad about what he did. He said he doesn't want to talk to me ever again. And frankly, for now, I don't think I'll miss his friendship.

By the way, I didn't want to point the finger at anyone in particular so I used anonymous names. Anna and Bill, if they ever read this will know who they are.

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Comments from the community:

well, this sounds like your typical school yard he daid/ she said rubbish. if "bill" would rather be angry at you becuase you "dobbed him in" than try and understand you and support you, he aint worth the friendship. sounds to me like anna is the one you should stick with. bill is extrememly immature and his behaviour is the last thing you need to surround yourself with. be strong and tell him you dont need him in your life if hes so self obsessed

move along, there are so many more ppl out there who will want to support you!!!

manda

Written by manda81, 16. Sep 2005 07:51 PM

hey- i'm going to reply to this later, i've just got a hair appt so i'll be back soon so I can give a longer reply. Take care. Love em

Written by esp, 17. Sep 2005 11:48 AM

hi a-leng,
Sweetie I can understand how this illness can fray friendships. I have realised you really learn who your true friends are. When you share something so personal with someone it is common sense to protect there confidentiality. However we know that people just can't help themselves. You have got more things to worry about then your friends fighting over who wanted to be told first-like how immature. They should respect your choices and you are the one who can decide when and who you tell. Take care, i hope this doesn't cause you any more troubles.
love em

Written by esp, 17. Sep 2005 03:29 PM

this doesnt sound very good but i mean telling a friend about your illness is hard and if your going around doing wierd things to people it might have mad anna feel uncomforatable and u know she had no one to talk to about your illness i mean who else did she have to tell... and i mean maybe bill was trying to protect u i mean he didnt want to hurt your feelings but sometimes maybe u made him feel uncomforatable.. so anna and bill were the only ones who knew about your illness therefor they only had each other to talk about when maybe u were feeling down...

i dont think bill meant to hurt your feelings he was probably mad that u hadnt told him about your illnes along time ago.. maybe bill thought that if he confronted u about ur illness you would be mad? or maybe bill thought if he told u he knew about ur illness u might get very upset and do something to yourself or someone else.

im sure anna and bill never meant to hurt your feelings they just wanted u to know the truth and bill was probably just mad and was upset at the time when he wrote that mean email he sent u. u should talk to anna and bill and try to forget the past. friends are essential in life if u have true friends they stick by u through the tough times. talk to anna and bill and try to sort out this problem so u can still be friends ok?

im sure anna and bill will want to be friends still...
goodluck with things @ Leng

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