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Written by a-Leng 16. May 2005 02:37 AM

I feel like I haven't written in this diary in a while so I thought I'd keep you guys updated on my situation though there's really nothing new to mention.

I'm really starting to dislike university life. It's very difficult! I just recently got three assessment pieces back (each one for a different subject) and I failed all three of them!

I feel really depressed because of this, I feel as though I don't have what it takes to get a uni degree. I mean I failed three things already! That's terrible progress.

What made me feel even more degraded is that I got below 40% for an assignment which was worth 20% of the overall grade. Not only that but the tutor, who I think is such an ass at the moment, said that my assignment was 'unacceptable rubbish'. At least, that's what he wrote as a comment and he hardly mentioned what I could do to improve my work.

I think he made it pretty clear that in his opinion I don't stand a chance at passing and at the rate I'm going with all my subjects how can I not agree with him? I wish I was smart enough...I mean I got into the course I'm doing almost by pure luck. I didn't even have the low TER score needed to get in but I got extra points added because I come from a low income family.

This university business is a lot more complicated and depressing than I thought it would be. :(

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Comments from the community:

Hi,
Don't give up...the comment by your "tutor" I find appalling and unhelpful. I'd fail him!!!
There are some crummy tutors at uni...some would make people wonder how they got the job!
Your tutor should be encouraging you.
Are you able to switch to another tutor?
Have you considered seeing your uni health service? They should be able to assist you in some way - try to make use of them - they are well familiar with all difficulties faced by students. There should also be support services for studying - note taking, essay writing...
The uni has accepted you for their course - they have a responsibility to help you (and not just take your course fees)

You can bet that other students are having difficulties with the course as well, so don't think that you're the problem.
All you can do is do your best.

Try to be optimistic...Best Wishes!

Written by waxworks, 16. May 2005 03:58 AM

Hiya,
Please don't let one person's comment bring you down. Find the strength if you can to ask why such a derogatory comment was made without constructive comments.
It appears that this tutor has some real problems, and the main one is they are not a good teacher, in fact I for one would not pay any heed to it, except to find out how I could improve on it.

I know it might be hard to accept but being a great student and passing uni, is not the be all and end all in this life. I too could have gone to uni but chose not too and have not regretted it for one moment.

I've had great jobs and meet many wonderful people in my working life merely by being happy in what I did.

It is hard to do any kind of study or involved work when your mind is not working at it's best and often it causes us to slip deeper into depression because we berate ourselves further.

Waxworks is right, seek support wherever you can find it. You have worked hard,be proud of that. You are worth a whole lot more than one comment and one degree.
Love
chy

Written by Chy, 16. May 2005 12:15 PM

Hi. I too go to university and was meant to graduate last year...but now it's going to take me another 2 years because of my stupid depression. I am taking one subject a semester. Maybe you should do that. What course are you doing?

Written by Anonymous, 16. May 2005 12:48 PM

Hello

Sorry about what the tutor or more likely lecturer said was uncalled and was non constructive and uncalled for. I'd see the head master / more likely the professor of the uni and report him for this behaviour.

As if you tell the head or "Professor about it he will be pulled up aside and made aware that that sort of unhelpful comments are uncalled for and to change his ways, if not the professor has the power to sack from his job as a lecturer/tutor!

Don't let him stop you from passing the exams, report him and make him changes his way as he gave no encouragment whatsoever to help ease the burduns of the uni life.Or best still prove him wrong as arrogant tutors hate been proven wrong in what they think!

There are always people who are judgmental on who they friendly to! It seems status says alot and some them tutors can be very picky who they mix with or bee nice to! As sometimes finanal status means alot to some of em then honesty put togeather!

Some of em may perfer "weathy" students then the "low income students", True it isn't fair but it happens. From my view, when you enter uni it means more then getting the certifation of either degree or batchlor of a subject etc.
It is a competion, they are only so many job spaces, that means getting the highest marks you able to get.

As at the end for the year's exam periods there are handful of frims offering job placments and interviews for the "ideal"
candiate. But you will contest your expertises against a few hundred applicatants.You and you fellow class mates and other people out there will be competing against each other for the same thing! JOBS placments!!!

I hope I shred some light on the subject!

Good luck

Written by Trainmaster, 16. May 2005 09:24 PM

Thanks for the helpful comments! I really appreciate it that you guys took the time to write something. ^-^

I don't feel much better but I hope things will improve. I will be seeing my psychiatrist tomorrow so hopefully she'll be able to help.

Oh, and shakespearean, I'm doing a bachelor of Management (Marketing). I'll consider doing what you're doing and study less subjects. I'm doing four at the moment!

Written by a-Leng, 16. May 2005 10:29 PM

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