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Written by smokinshar 11. Oct 2008 02:32 AM

Hi all, thanks for all your comments. I really feel quite alone in all this.

I was late for work today as I had another argument with hubby and couldnt get to sleep for ages. I basically 'kicked him' again into action for i dont know how long this time.

I feel like a bitch though. Am i kicking him when hes down so to speak. I refused to do some things like shopping, my housework and tidying. He didnt like that cause he had no choice.

His memory is not good at the moment, he forgot to turn dishwasher on so we had dirty dishes to wake up to, which really annoyed me. Cause my brain needs a rest. I just cant think of everything. The kids were late for school every day this week cause he couldnt wake up or get up. Not like i didnt try and wake him up. I refuse to drive kids to school before going on to work. Ive had enough.

He used to be reliable before this crap happened and now hes not. The kids run riot while he sleeps most of the time. Then i come home exhausted, have a nap and get into it all again.

The kids wonder why i dont spend much time with them.

Anyway, im taking them swimming tomorrow with a friend and her kids while hubby watches bathhurst. Maybe ill get to see the finish!!

Bye for now
Shar.
PS. Ill be going to health nurse as soon as i can.
Take care all.

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I just wanted to say if any one replies to your diaries dont let them upset you. Some times we do get rogue users here at Dnet that cause trouble if a diary entry upsets you please send it to the moderators to fix. I dont reply to many diaries but I do read all of them.To me you seem already at burnout point so I hope you will follow up with the nurse. TC

Written by Deleted_User, 11. Oct 2008 03:39 PM

PS please contact gypsy she may have some helpful information for you TC

Written by Deleted_User, 11. Oct 2008 03:41 PM

Shar

it is hard to deal with a person with depression... they are often their own worse enemy... they do not always want to be like they are but they can't seem to shake it... your husband is wearing you down... you have done well to try and shock him into action... but it is not working and you are sinking with the effort... time to look after you and the kids... your husband has to work on his own stuff... maybe kicking him out of the house... or not... a talk to him about how his behaviour is destroying your relationship...

take care

rgds
cate

Written by cateblack, 11. Oct 2008 03:45 PM

Smokingshar

You seem to be in a difficult situation with hubby. Don't be too hard on him and see the mental health nurse asap because they may be able to get you some help that you need.

Glad you are spending tomorrow with the kids and a friend. Sounds nice.

Make sure hubby is reminded of things, not harshly but gently - I have to remind my hubby and I am the one with the depression/mental illness. Perhaps get him to try a to do list with a couple of things on it at first. Also make sure he is taking his a/d - very important for both of your sakes and the kids.

Go Shar!!!

Mrs Studying1

Written by studying1, 11. Oct 2008 05:24 PM