I'm digging myself back into the hole
A page in the diary "A useless piece of carp- yes I meant to spell it that way"
Written by nothingnew 26. Jul 2008 03:36 PM
I know how to stop, but I just can't.
They all say, go out, have fun. Treat yourself, exercise... You are strong, you can call that psychologist back and make a new appointment. I CAN'T!
I'm counteracting the positive affects of the medication because I sit at home all day thinking negative thoughts and being lazy. and I don't really want to change...
Had my first suicidal thought since I've been on the meds today.. it just slipped in like one of my regular thoughts...
I'm sick of my friends now too...
Must remember to book myself in to the doctors before my meds run out, coz I can't get new ones until I see him.
I hate this, but I don't have the energy or motivation to change.
I don't want to say it, but its how I feel...