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Back at school after the holidays

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Written by nothingnew 23. Jul 2008 09:03 PM

I was all refreshed.. ready to turn over the new leaf that was delayed by my depression. Now that my meds worked it was something that I could do..

Then, not even one hour into my 7.45am starting school day, my teacher dropped the first bombshell; my trial HSC mark... I was alright at the time... I could cope with one bad mark.

Next period... I am given back one part of my ancient history trials... another bombshell. 16/25

Two periods later, I am there staring at my 8/20 mark on the french speaking trial... all together it was a 56% effort.. I usually get at least a 70%...

Today, first subject in, (at 7.45am also) a lovely 5/20 and 10/20 on two english essays... GREAT! NOT

Maths next... not entirely terrible mark of 73%, however my usual marks are closer to the 90% area...

Another part of the ancient history exam came back too... 14/25... failed AGAIN

GAAAAAH stupid depression has ruined my chances of getting into uni. I have ABSOLUTELY no chance of getting in anymore.

I am applying for EAS for special provisions... but it gives you a whole 4 extra UAI points... that is NOTHING! my UAI is going to be somewhere around the 50 and below mark, and I NEEED at least a 72 THATS WITH THE EXTRA POINTS (to get a 76) to get in.

*sighs* getting over depression is not just finding the right meds... there's everything else that catches up with you too....

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Nothing

Sorry your return to school was dashed so early. See if you can apply under special circumstances on the basis of your depression. Explore all your avenues to get the score you need to get into uni. Good luck with it.

Go Nothing!!!

Mrs Studying1

Written by studying1, 23. Jul 2008 09:07 PM

Nothing

I am hoping that this is a trial... and not the actual results for you... now the meds are working you will be able to improve on the trial grades... so study hard and keep working... things have been tough for you but you will be able to get through this... also do not look at this as being a one chance only at getting into uni... there are more options... you can repeat the final year of school... or you can wait until you are older and enter as a mature age entrant ... so do not think you are excluded from uni...

take care...

rgds
cate

Written by cateblack, 23. Jul 2008 10:49 PM

Hey,
I just want to let you know that it isn't all entirely hopeless. When I was in year 12 in 2005 I was also really sick. I made it up until the middle of the year before school started getting affected - I couldn't face going to classes, couldn't concentrate to do any work, and my grades slipped from really good (in the 90%+ range) to barely passing and in some cases not even that. My school forced me to go to see a psychologist, but it was too late. I made it until 10 days before graduation when I was forced into hospital by the CAT team. I was never allowed to sit my exams because I was so sick, but I still started uni, in a course with a good year 12 mark requirement the same year as everyone else I graduated with. There are ways around it, the universities just don't advertise it. If you want any information my email address is on my profile.

Try not to stress about it too much. I know that sounds like a ridiculous thing to say, but this isn't the be all and end all. Take it from someone who has been there before - getting into uni isn't worth sacrificing your health. It will always be there for you.
Good luck with everything, and take care :)

Written by babz, 26. Jul 2008 12:44 PM

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