LIFE {WHAT A JOKE}
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Written by grannie 26. Aug 2008 03:14 AM
Yesterday another court day with a further remand,till the middle of Sept.Another report from a social worker based once again on that psychs report, I again have never spoken to her but she states that I am a child abuser and a danger to my grandchildren.I have complained to no avail it seems that my past is never going to go away.I feel so angry because 10 years ago I planned my S and spent 3 weeks in a psych centre to come home and 3 days later have a major heart attack.My mind is full of crazy thoughts right now I dont know if I can really hang on.I gave my crazy nurse the flick as I am getting really paranoid and dont trust any one any more.I find myself isolating myself staying in my room not wanting to be around any one any more.My son is losing so much because of me and all I can say to him that Im sorry.I pray each day for this day to be my lasy but even God cant help me.I am just so tired of being here but I cant S as the pain would destroy my grandaughter.I guess the social worker is right I am senile.And that makes me a burden to my family.I dont have a life any more I dont feel happiness any more.
Just a bedroom with a tv and thats it,so thats my life and it sucks. TC ALL