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A page in the diary "Wednesday's Child"
Written by vivica 13. Sep 2008 07:46 PM

Here I am again at work, bludging internet. Which does make me feel a little bit bad (my bosses are so good to me!) but I felt compelled to write.
My appointment with the psych went really well, I always enjoy seeing him. The dr was alright too. But, obviously he's just not the same as my old dr :(... I'm sure all of my old dr's patients will be feeling the same.
I'm still on the Cymbalta and feeling pretty optimistic (today at least) about it.
My psych has suggested I get into some volunteer work with animals or some such. I imagine he was amazed to see how much calmer and happier I was when I was playing with Percy, his pet python (well, one of them) :D. So I've been giving that some thought.
He also supported my idea of discussing the difficulties I've been having at uni with Student Services. I just need to pluck up the courage. He also got me thinking of all the things I'm looking forward to at the moment. Did I mention I've almost finished paying for my Costa Rica trip?
My boyfriend and I are starting to look seriously about moving out, he'll be checking out an apartment in Parramatta on Monday. I, unfortunately, will be at work.
But if I can't trust the judgment of my boyfriend of four years, who can I trust?
And one of my favourite songs just came on the radio.

It all makes me feel like everything is going to be alright eventually. I hope I can hold onto this feeling, even if it's just for a couple of hours.
I know better but gosh it's nice...
I hope everyone is well.
I've been doing so much hoping lately.

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Vivica

life is looking good... you have done well.. hope the new move will be good... trust in the taste of the b/f he picked you didn't he?...

take care

rgds
cate

Written by cateblack, 13. Sep 2008 10:34 PM

I know what you mean. Sometimes it just feels like everything is going to be ok, even though it isn't at present moment in time. These are the days that get us through the times where it feels that nothing will ever be OK again. Good luck with the apartment, and give the volunteer work a go - I'm sure the RSPCA or some such are always looking for volunteers.

Written by babz, 13. Sep 2008 11:50 PM