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Written by vivica 20. Aug 2008 08:01 PM

I'm hanging in there. I mean, I'm trying. I'm losing motivation from Uni and I'm feeling worse than ever. Maybe it's my medication? It can have opposite to the intended affect on younger people.
I'd ask my doctor but was told upon trying to make that appointment that he's "not in general practice" and this "situation is indefinite". Although she said THE, the situation, with a hint of disdain...
So it's time to find a new one. But I don't feel well enough this week, so I might leave it for a couple of days. I'm starting seeing the psychologist the day after tomorrow so I'll talk about it to him I suppose...
My first lot of uni tests are coming up. What?, I only just got here, or so it seems. I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed but I know I'm not the only one. All I can try to do is my best. I'm happy scraping passes for now.
Oh, and now that it's official, I'm due to be an aunt again in February. My other sister this time (as people keep saying with a little bit of a sneer). Pretty exciting and/or terrifying, just like last time.
That'll do for now, I'm going to go crawl under my favourite blanket and forget about the world for a while.

EDIT at 8.30pm. Mental health team called. Had a really good chat with the lady. I'm seeing a psychiatrist (no charge) on Monday. I could just cry with gratitude.

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Comments from the community:

Vivica

I am not sure what the situation is with your doctor... sounds like you need to find a new one.. which is what I think you have said... you have done well to manage as much uni as you have... the pressure is always more with the assessment ... talk to the disability officer at uni if you think your grades will be affected by your health...

i hope things work out.. take care

rgds
cate

Written by cateblack, 20. Aug 2008 08:10 PM

Hi Viv,
hope you made it to uni and that things are OK today.
I am really glad the Mental Health team called and you are seeing someone.

I have only just gotten up as I am sick as a dog (perhaps a chest infection?) its a bit of a bummer though when I am feeling well mentally. Oh well I wont let that bring me down.

Good luck with the Doc and new psych....you are reaching out for help, you are on the road to recovery my friend.

Lots of support


Lz

Written by keller, 21. Aug 2008 03:55 PM