A bit Low Today
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Written by Lozza37 20. Jun 2008 11:09 PM
Today I did absolutely nothing!!! I lay on the couch and dozed on and off, only got showered and dressed at 1:30pm becasue I thought I should before the kids got home from school. Feel a bit guilty but not really. I haven't worked since I got fired three weeks ago but have got another job, start next week. I am a bit worried about having enough money for our holiday next month to queensland. we are all looking forward to it so much. Not having my second income has been a bit tough. I so want to just run away for a few days and sleep and do nothing, have no responsablities, lseep all day if I want to, have a long hot bath with no interruptions. My husband is not very supportive, he figures that because I am not working that I can do it all, he only helps out a tiny bit when I do work. I am so sick of it. My ideas of a family life is not at all what I am experiencing. I have 3 lazy kids and a lazy husband, I try and do as much as I can but some days I just can't work up the enthusiasm. I have even left things for days to see if they would notice or do anything and they don't. I whinge and cry about it all the time and still they do nothing, even when i really lose it and tell my husband that I am just not coping he does nothing, he says how can he help if I don't ask him, but i do, I mention that doing the dishwasher is a help but an even better help would be to wipe the benches down and put the placemats away and washing the pots that are too big for the dishwasher would be better. But no, I still have to do all that too. My oldest is useless too, he sees his father not doing anything and "getting away with it". Arghhhhh. I am just going over this issue over and over again to no evail. I would really love some suggestions. I am at my wits end.