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Written by hunni 26. May 2008 03:47 PM

i dnt even know wot im goin to write, all i know was i needed to write a diary.. i dnt know wot is wrong with me i use to talk to people all the time, now its like no matter wot i do my body is tellin me to go sleep even tho i cnt.im startin to isolate myself beginin to become very tired an no energy wot so ever. beginin to feel im a problem to everyone, i use to write now im strugglin to even make sense. ppl ask if im ok an all i write is yep im ok even when im not. i ask myself y am i isolatin myself n pushin the ppl who want to help me away but all tha comes bak is i duno, i duno...
im startin to get to the point where im feelin too much and thinkin to much that i dnt even know wot im feelin or thinkin anymore if that makes sense. im numb and exhausted yet dnt do much... who knows just gotta hang in there and tell my pdoc on fri..
take care everyone.

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Comments from the community:

Hi Dee,

That's exactly what you've got to do hunni, tell your p.doc so he can prescribe some med's for you to give you a bit more get up and go.

Please don't feel like you're a problem to everyone, you've got to let some people in so that they can help you. Don't shut your Dad out whatever you do and keep writing so you've got something to go to p.doc with on friday.

And keep writing here on depnet, you have a loving and supportive family of fellow depnetters here who want to see you well and happy.

Take care,

Karen xxx

Written by fly, 26. May 2008 04:24 PM

Hunni

This is how I feel now. I have two couples of close friends and they are the only ones I see. Except yesterday I saw two extra couples because it was one of their partners birthday and 19th wedding anniversary in April and because of their daughters sports activities we could only catch up yesterday. It was good but I am doing avoidance.

Don't let the isolation interfer with you and your friends. You need your friends and support and you don't need to be lonely like I am at the moment.

Go Hunni!!!

Mrs Studying1

Written by studying1, 26. May 2008 06:29 PM

Hunni,

One of things I used to do was tell people that I was fine when I really wasn't. By doing this, it causes you to be in denial about what you really feel.

If people ask you if you are ok, they actually want to know if you are ok..so maybe a response could be "I don't feel that great today but I'm working hard to make myself feel better.

Or just leave it as I just feel a bit off...and its best if we just leave it alone for now.

Exercise actually helps fatigue levels, so get outside go for a walk...even if it to the shops and back...it'll make you feel a bit better

Written by spinner, 26. May 2008 06:44 PM

Hi,

Just reading your diary overwhelms me and I feel sorry for you honey, your thoughts are bouncing around like a pin ball machine.

What you need to remember that not knowing how you feel is ok. It's ok if you just can't pin point how you feel you don't always have to report your feelings in an articulate way.

Sometimes it's good to just ramble and say everthing on your mind, just as you have done here. Maybe you need a change of scenary? Take a short slow stroll outside, or go shopping. Maybe you aren't ready to socialize, don't beat yourself up about it. Often when I'm depressed talking is just too difficult, eventhough I have a lot on my mind.

And this is ok, take it easy, you are allowed to feel whatever you want. But I think you should try to get out of the house, I promise you it will help to lift your mood :)

Bluewave
xxoo

Written by bluewave, 27. May 2008 04:10 PM

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