shakin,shock n numb
A page in the diary ""
Written by hunni 22. May 2008 10:58 AM
my last diary was about suspission i had with my stepbro. well wot a step bro he turned out to be.
all i did was walk into the kitchen was in the fridge an as i turned round he grabbed my chest..
comments had been said i paniced an rang to my room and rang dad,
dad rang him and said a few things my step bro apparently said it was an accident an dad asked him y did he ran then and he said cos, dad then asked if he touched me in any way the other night and at first he was quiet and dad said he told him to tell him so at least i know cos its not fair on me my step bro turned around and said he didnt want to go to jail...
dad told me this and i asked him wot does this mean and wot does dad think happened and all dad said he doesnt want me to worry just yet and to wait until after i have had the medical done which is today..
its happened all ova again the bastard i thougt who was protective of me has gone an hurt me how cn i trst another male again??
ive had soo many thoughts go thru my head, such as do i do somethin to attract them?? its my own fault..
i feel dirty, i feel sic, i dnt want to feel at all..
im scared if he has done wot were thinkin he has then im in trouble, im not on the pill or anythin...
in a few hours ill be goin to have my medical done to see if he did hurt me like that or not, dad has told him his not to step foot in this house again...
my head is killin ive had a headache all day yesterday and still got it and i feel sic.
im prayin n prayin he didnt do wot dad thinks he did n wot i feel he did... neway ill keep writin i have to go n organise myself for today.
a few things i havent said in my diary that makes us think he did cos i dnt think its appropriate to say n also cos im embarrassed.. sorry
take care