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Written by hunni 15. May 2008 06:19 AM

well yesterday i had my first Pdoc appt. an a lovely experience that was not!!..
Dad came with me, we were there and she was talkin to me. I gave her the same letter i had given dad and she asked me how i felt? i was that scared of bein there tha i was shakin and no matter how much i wanted to say to her i sat there frozen nothin came out.
towards the end she said that i looked petrified all i could do was nodd. she asked me to go back next week and hopefully we can open up some more and i hardly spoke the whole time, i wanted to talk but nothin come out... i got home and was disappointed in myself and was upset thaat i couldnt talk to her. she seems really nice and easy to talk to but i couldnt do it.
im still tryin to figure out y i couldnt talk.
well guess ill have to try again next week an hopefully i get somewhere just angry well not angry but upset that i have to wait another week for help :(

luv dee

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Comments from the community:

Hi Hunni,
The first visit is hard, don't be upset with yourself, be proud of the fact u went and u tried.
It will get easier with each visit, she has ur letter so she already knows some of your history, you are a telented writer, even if u were to start each session with something you had written it would give her a starting point.
So although you feel you did'nt speak and you froze up you did speak through your writing writing.
Keep up the visits it will easier as you get to know and trust her.
Take care Hunni.

(((((((((((((hunni))))))))))))

B1

Written by bananas, 15. May 2008 06:37 AM



Hunni.......

Youre first step was getting there. You at least made it there and sat in on the session and gave her the letter. Stop being so hard on yourself. You have come such a long way in such a short time and I am so proud of you. As you seem to like the Pdoc, next time should be a bit easier for you.
We arent God and cant perform miracles , so one step at a time Babe, and I'm here with you all the way.

Love Mum xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Written by lesleyk, 15. May 2008 08:17 AM

Hunni

Well done on going to the appointment and having the courage to show her the letter. Thats how I started with my psychologist.

Each visit after that I would take in my diary that I had written since the last visit. I would give it to him to read.

After a few visits like this he then asked me to read it to him. Was I shaking or what but I did it. I am now at the point that I might just make a couple of notes of anything important.

This has taken me eight months to get to this stage so please go easy on yourself and give yourself time. Try writing this week about your thoughts and feelings and take that in with you. You can then choose to either hand it over at the beginning of the session or use it if you still find you are unable to talk.

Hope this helps

Take care


Aunty Jen xxxx

Written by lifesucks, 15. May 2008 08:45 AM

Hi Dee,

Everyone's pretty much said what I was going to say. Well done on getting to the pdoc, that in itself is a great achievement and you should feel proud of yourself.

It's very hard to open up at the first visit, it's a bit of a game of cat and mouse, sizing each other up, but in a few short weeks I'm confident you'll feel a lot more comfortable with her.

Writing.... that's what you do and you're great at it, it was terrific you gave your letter to her to read, that is a great starting point... but keep writing and if you feel the trust with her is there, then share your writings with her.

Is your Dad going to sit in on every visit? I just wonder if maybe you'd feel more comfortable talking if he wasn't in the room? Just a question and totally your decision.

Anyways, I'm proud of you for seeking out pdoc and going to appointment. Little steps and you've just made another one, well done.

Take care,

Karen xxx

Written by fly, 15. May 2008 10:29 AM

Hunni

That first visit to a psychiatrist or psychologist is a scary one because you don't know each other and you have to retell your story and don't know this person asking all these questions that it is quite normal to not say much. Be glad you got there and had your dad there to support you. Think that next week will be another week and be better for you.

Go Hunni!!!

Mrs Studying1

Written by studying1, 15. May 2008 02:37 PM