cn i go on?
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Written by hunni 8. May 2008 03:12 AM
y does it seem as though things r gettin harder??
the last 24 hrs have distroyed me, i thought i was strong enough to handle it but the last 24hrs have just shown me im not strong at all.
i started writin out my life in detail like the doc said for my psych, i got as far as get thru was the sexual abuse, and that was a struggle, i felt like it was all happenin again and dont know how to handle it. i thought maybe if i had a sleep i would be ok as i had only had about 4 hrs sleep in the past 6 days, but i wasnt asleep very long before i had a nightmare of it.
i cnt deal with it, i thought by me writin it would help me cos ive told anyone the full story but instead its killin me.
i was sittin here in chat pretendin i was ok cos i didnt want ppl to think im always depressed, i couldnt take it anymore and broke dwn and left chat, while sittin at the computer cryin i had nothin but stupid thoughts go round and round my head.
can i really handle this or am i just kiddin myself?
i dont know how much more i can handle its gettin to much :'(
sorry
dee