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Written by hunni 7. May 2008 12:48 AM

and once again it starts :'(
while on msn talkin to someone who was tryin to help me, my mum signs on,she is once again bein abusive so i appear offline!!! just like the advice i got to do..
it didnt stop her.. min later i got a offline msg sayin;
"Its either u or me dead dee, u cn decide and everyone wants its to be u"
then as time went by i got msges from her on the answerin machine. my msn name is im ALONE in this world,facin ALL my fears,with one FAKE smile,and a bunch of useless tears.
the msges left were sayin "that wot does my msn name mean i have family n friends who care about me so im not alone, and maybe it was a bad idea sendin me ova here cos i seem more depressed and she is there for me and maybe i should go back to her"
she is really really playin mind games with me and i cnt handle it anymore, one min she is sain to kill myself next she is sayin she cares. i know neither her or my family or friends do cos i have tried talkin to them and they ignore me.
she has done this to me b4 and promised she wouldnt hurt me again so i went back and it got worse. i dnt know wot she is tryin to do to me..
i cnt handle her mind games anymore its breakin my heart, all i eva wanted was to be loved by my mother but its neva goin to happen :(
of course by her sayin this made me feel even more crappy than wot i was to start with..
wot do i do?
i cnt take it nemore :'(
Dee

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Written by maple, 7. May 2008 07:52 AM

Hunni,

I feel for your situation with issues with your mother. Be strong and make sure she can not contact you in any way, shape or form. Then when you are ready, you can make contact on your terms.

No child deserves negative treatment from anyone let along their own mother. She should be ashamed of herself.

Take care and I hope things get better for you.

Written by Deleted_User, 7. May 2008 10:31 AM

Dee

Good advice... cut contact with her... by giving her access to you via phone and msn you enable her to abuse you... maybe your mother needs the psychiatrist and not you after all... but you do need professional help with the depression...

Sometimes we are so used to the bad stuff we keep it around because we know it and somehow it feels safer than being left alone and abandoned...

Talk it out with lifeline too... until you get to see your psychiatrist and psychologist... the more you take charge of yourself.. the better you will feel...

I say this but don't do it... so only do as much as you can... and only listen to advice you feel is worth it...

take care

rgds
cate

Written by cateblack, 7. May 2008 01:09 PM

Hunni

You mother sounds like my mother Queen Bee - can't accept I have mental illness, thinks my psychiatrist is killing me and not helping me.

Change as much as you can in regards to contact with her - new msn identity, mobile and landline numbers and the answering machine to less calls - perhaps she will get the hint you don't want to talk to her - I did that and it seems to have worked with Queen Bee, mind you, since we have gotten married, she has not been such a pain in calling and being rude and offensive so I don't know if being married has changed things.

Go Hunni!!!

Mrs Studying1

Written by studying1, 7. May 2008 05:46 PM

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