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Written by hunni 3. Jul 2008 01:00 AM

i made a huge mistake the other night by lettin someone upset me an put me in both a bad state and a bad frame of mind. n now i have to deal with a loved one leavin me in the result of it..
i feel like im empty now that im alone, its breakin my heart i want them to come back into my life again but i cant get them to forgive me if i cant even forgive myself. i neva ment to hurt anyone i just wasnt thinkin.
all i can do is hope they come back into my life, i feel so lost,empty,alone without them.

im most likely just blabberin on but im hurt/upset that someone dear to me is now gone.
if i could take back the other night i would do it in a heart beat no second thoughts nothin it would be done and none of this would of happened.
all i wanted was the pain to go away but cos of the state i was in i could only think of one way, and didnt they hey hang on a min this will pass.
i didnt allow myself the chance to sit here n see all the things goin on and just lettin them pass n watch them go past instead i grabbed onto them n got myself worse..i can do this i just have to remember ill have some bad days but that hey they will pass.

now ive lost wot i was really tryin to say guess thats the hint to crawl back into bed an try and get some sleep..
Take care everyone
dee

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Comments from the community:

Sadly one of the rotten things about life is that we cannot undo the mistakes we make or the hurt we cause other people. Saying sorry just isn't enough sometimes. If we could, I would now be happily married to the love of my life instead of sitting alone in the dark every night.

There's nothing I can say to make life better for you. I can only recommend that you take a moment to see the good and precious stuff that is still in your life and treasure them. Find a way to turn your hurt into something positive. Grow with the experience you have gained and try not to make the same mistake again in the future. Life does go on, even if you feel like youve just had your heart ripped out and turned into roadkill. Keep breathing. Keeping getting out of bed and doing stuff you know you enjoy. One day the hurt does heal (note, I did not say it goes away!) and you have become a better, stronger, smarter person for the experience.

Good luck & keep smiling!

Written by mudgypsy, 3. Jul 2008 09:09 AM

If you make an apology (written), at least you will have done everything you can do which should help you to forgive yourself over time.

Written by TerryN, 3. Jul 2008 12:01 PM

Hunni

Apologise if you need to and explain what caused this event between the two of you. Hopefully the loved one will unstand. If they cannot accept your apology, you just have to notch it up to a learning experience.

I hope you can sort it out for your/their benefit.

Go Hunni!!!

Mrs Studying1

Written by studying1, 3. Jul 2008 01:52 PM

hi,

You have to firstly forgive yourself. We make mistakes and now it is the past, time to let go and forgive yourself. Maybe it's good thing your loved one is gone...just for awhile hopefully.

Take this opportunity to really see what causes the pain, write out a defense for every negative thing you say to yourself. It's scary being alone a I have found, however I have also learnd just how strong I can be alone. I don't want to need someone to make me happy. Being alone and idependant can bring positivity back into your life.

Each day that goes by the more easier it will be able to cope with life, don't give up!

bluewave
xxoo

Written by bluewave, 3. Jul 2008 02:50 PM

Hun,

You haven't lost me. I am always always here for you.

Love,
WD

Written by WhiteDove, 4. Jul 2008 02:15 PM

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