Hit rock bottom but bounced bak up
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Written by hunni 2. Jul 2008 04:40 PM
The last few days i have been down, but i have been hangin in there.
until last nite.. last nite i hit rock bottom it was all over so i thought. but i calmed down and im ok an still here.
for my consezuences of this i may have lost someone i deeply love in the mean time an it hurts.
had my psychologist this morning we spoke about last nite and wot happened, we also got dad to sit in on the session. he sat listenin to wot happened last night an my thoughts and feelings of it all.
he was upset but glad i made it through, i cried n cried and kept apoligizing for lettin him down.
i kept sayin i wasnt goin into hosp cos it would hurt dad but she asked how would dad feel to me gettin the help i need to how would dad feel if i had died.
dad said he would prefer me to get the help i need and to keep fightin it as the feelings dont last for ever.
for the next few nights i will be havin someone sit with me from the time dad goes to work til he comes home. if i can show im ok and prove i can handle it i will go bak to bein on my own. otherwise the next step will be admission to hosp.
well see how i go i realised now that hey its a feelin only wen somethin upsets me an it will pass it doesnt stay with u foreva where as death does.
last night was hard but i got through it, so i guess it shows me i can get through it all ive come this far im not goin to turn back..
thanks
take care
dee