I keep her in business
A page in the diary "surprise surprise"
Written by g463 29. Apr 2008 09:04 PM
Well, I haven't written anything for few days. Went to the psychologist yesterday. Freaked her out a bit because I'd forgotten my appointment and she was concerned about what might have happened to me - especially when she called my work and they hadn't heard from me all day either. I was just home, sick.
It's funny how that while for now I see that I have a worthwhile job and I contribute something meaningful to the world because of it, I'm so certain that when I'm no longer contributing anything worthwhile - when I'm no longer worthwhile, I will probably choose to end my life.
Strange to think of when that may be. I don't have a timeframe in mind other than 'when I'm no longer useful'. To me it seems like an appropriate, planned thing, but to my psych it's crazy.
Seems quite sensible to me, really.
Perhaps that's why I see her weekly. I'm crazy. She's not. I keep her in business. *shrug*
g463