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Written by fly 4. May 2008 03:09 PM

Hi,
I last wrote here over a month ago and since then I've been in hospital/detox for alcohol. I spent 2 weeks in hospital and have now been out for 2 weeks. During this time I've managed to stay sober, not taking 1 drink.

I've been attending AA meetings, seeing my psychiatrist and psychologist, all of which is helping enormously.

But just today I am really struggling. I'm depressed, although I have noticed the depression has lifted slightly with my soberness, but today I really feel like taking that 1st drink. We're off to a party tonight where I plan to drink Coke, and the party is a long way away from home so I'll be driving anyway. I think I'm just feeling lonely, my husband is at work and my kids have friends over and are actually leaving me pretty much alone (which is great and doesn't happen very often), but I've never been one to enjoy my own company, except when p_ssed and then I can have fun with myself.

Please give me the strength to continue on with my abstinence. AA suggests putting your faith into a "Higher Power", but I'm really struggling with this at the moment, I havevn't believed in God for a very very long time.

Does anyone have any suggestions please?

Cheers,
Fly

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Comments from the community:

Fly

you have done what you need to do for the party... make sure you have enough coke... you will get a sugar high if you drink too much... so swap it with water every couple of drinks..

not sure what to do about higher power... except some people believe in the universe... cosmic power... trees and nature... not always God.. just say to yourself... I will trust the higher power to guide me through tonigh safely without alcohol..

it is worth a try anyway...

hope you have a good time... find other pleasures in your life... to enjoy sober...

take care

rgds
cate

Written by cateblack, 4. May 2008 03:15 PM

Fly

I forgot... congratulations on 2 weeks sober... it is an achievement...

one day at a time

take care

rgds
cate

Written by cateblack, 4. May 2008 03:16 PM

Welcome Back Fly,

Good on you for staying off the alcohol. That is such a GREAT achievement, and you should be so proud of yourself. Hun you are doing a great job and there will be times when you will feel like a drink but hang in there they will pass.
Pop into chat sometime when someone there and have a talk to us. If you have MSN my details are on my profile and I'd be only to happy to talk to you.
Take care Fly, youre doing great.
Love Lesley xxx

Written by lesleyk, 4. May 2008 04:06 PM

Call your Sponsor if you have one. They have been exactly where you are and will know how to handle parties. Best way to stay sober...try to really remember why you went into Rehab in the first place.
If you haven't spoken at a meeting yet, try, it's purpose is to help you remember why you stopped drinking.
Talking with someone in AA today would probably do a lot for you and helping you keeps them sober as well..
Higher Power they can help you with too, it isn't God for many people.
Keep going Fly and be proud of yourself, live a life you can be proud of...go to a meeting on the way to the party...
All the best.

Written by maple, 4. May 2008 04:11 PM

Fly

Congrats for this achievement. Get no sugar coke and have a good time at the party. As has been suggested call your sponsor to get some help/advice on how to deal with this need to have a drink.

Go Fly and have a good time at the party!!!

Mrs Studying1

Written by studying1, 4. May 2008 05:12 PM

Thanks for your comments everyone.... Maple, I've been to a few AA meetings now and have been out the front 3 times now. Very difficult at the start, but getting easier as I go. I don't have a sponsor as yet, I'm not sure how that works. I've been given 2 phone numbers, but I don't really know the ladies well enough to feel I can ring them as yet.

I'm just waiting to go to the party and it's weird that I'm sitting here sober, I'd normally have 1/2 bottle of scotch under my belt before something like this. Hope I get pulled over by a breatho on the way home just to make it all worth while LOL !!

Thanks again everyone.

Fly xxx

Written by fly, 4. May 2008 06:22 PM

Hey Fly,

Well done for staying off the alcohol since your release from hospital. I am new to sobriety myself after having almost got through 17 days sober going cold turkey.

Keep going with the AA meetings and the Psych visits, they will help you cope.

You are braver than me, i gave up going to a 40th birthday party this weekend because i didn't think i could cope with the pressure of everyone else drinking. It was the best decision for me as i don't feel that strong yet.

I struggle every day, and my depression is a whole lot worse since my detox, but am over medicating myself to help the situation.

So, i suppose i don't really have any advice for you as such, except to keep doing what you are doing, you are achieving great things, keep it up.

Take care,

Luv Nouse

Written by Nouse, 4. May 2008 09:14 PM

Dear fly,
Congratulations darl...I am so proud of you & I am sure your family are too. It is not easy to give up alcohol but you have achieved it. Please do continue to go to the AA meetings as you can support each other. I do believe there is a God 'A Higher Power' if you pray just a few words...I am sure God will be listening to you.
Take care & God Bless,
Valerie x0x

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