Going OK and getting used to it
A page in the diary ""
Written by fly 6. Jun 2008 11:11 PM
Hi everyone,
I haven't written a diary entry for a week or so because life has been going really well for me.
It's taken me a while to get used to a life without booze, which basically equates to a life without anger, resentment and drama.
As I replied to Liz's diary today about feeling empty and devoid of feelings after losing the angry feeling I came to the realisation that I was doing OK. What I said in my reply to Liz's diary entry was actually the truth. My empty black hole that was left in me after the anger left me about 3 months ago has been filled with love and joy.
I almost feel like I don't have a reason for being here anymore, except I get so much fulfillment from offering advice to those not quite at the stage I am at. I find it incredulous to actually be writing these words, I never thought I would reach this point of contentment and inner peace.
As I said in reply to Liz's diary entry, it's taken a while to actually feel comfortable in this new skin I find myself suddenly wearing... the loss of anger in my life has made a huge difference, but it has taken about 3 months to actually adjust to. But now I'm accepting that life can be peaceful, just, good and even enjoyable and it's so great just to be able to accept it how it is and go with the flow.
I feel (laughing now) a bit like a hippy at the moment... peace man! It's the ultimate!
My love to you all,
Karen xxx