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Written by omar 30. May 2008 09:35 PM

I got flunked in two courses out of three. It has all been due to reduced concentration, impaired memory and lack of initiative. Hope this time around I will manage to get through these courses. I spent the whole semester watching tv hiding from people which I have been doing since last three years. I stay indoors most of the time and feel so lethargic to do anything or take the initiative. I know these all are lame excuses as I am not alone suffering and there are others on this website who are brave and can face the challenges unlike me. I am pathetic and usless. I have no worth. Only GOD knows what will happen of me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.

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Omar

I am so sorry to hear you about your courses... maybe you will pass...

Depression is an illness... and it causes you to lose motivation and to struggle against the feelings that overwhelm you...

don't be so hard on yourself...

take care

rgds
cate

Written by cateblack, 30. May 2008 09:38 PM

Hi Omar,

Don't be too hard on yourself, depression is a difficult illness to overcome. Are you on any medications? If not I think you should see your GP and perhaps get a referal to a psychiatrist to correctly diagnose you and prescribe you med's.

This could help you with your concentration problems and your lack of motivation.

Good luck,

Karen xxx

Written by fly, 30. May 2008 09:49 PM

Hey there Omar,

I am uni at the moment and am in the same boat as you. I am finding it very hard to concentrate and study and assignments are a killer for me!!!

I know you feel bad about flunking. But hun think about it, at leats you made it to actually sit for that exam? A lot of time we think that we dont achieve things but we actually look at it, you have. you sat for that exam, you got through the semster and thats huge sweety!!!

yes you failed. but hun, life is all about going downhill and then slowly with the right strtegies going up again. it will be a hard road but NOT NOT NOT impossible. I hardly know you but i see a lot of potential in you. Watching tv and not spending time in bed is another achievement!!! See the little things that we dont see as progress.

Dont give up. Have a good sleep. And wake up thinking i can do this. And even if you feel crap, get out of bed and jump in that shower. Pick a study material that you are most intereted in and start reading. What I reckon would be a good idea is to write notes or even just doodle. Reading passively when your concentration is poor is very hard. Maybe writing it and doing it actively, things will improve. Or put on music that you like, put it on blasting loud and then off it and start studying.

Or if you cant do that, study with a friend if that works for you.

Sweety, I know its hard. I do. I have struggled and I am still struggling. But deep down I know you and I and evry other perosn in this world will make it. just need to believe in yourself. and if you cant, fake it. Faking it is better than nothing.

Okay swety. I am gonna head to bed now. need to work tomorrow.

take care love,

And remember you can do it.

Love
wd

Written by WhiteDove, 31. May 2008 01:04 AM

Fear of failure with Uni is huge but when it happens it isn't actually life changing is the lesson you could learn here. You do get to have another go, what about taking it easy and getting prepared for next time instead of beating yourself up? You really need treatment for your depresssion so I hope you are doing that as it won't go away by itself and is making your life harder than it needs to be.
A fail result can be motivating or demotivating, you decide, at least you kow the reason you failed is you didn't do the work, not because it is beyond you.

Written by maple, 31. May 2008 08:52 AM

Omar

Don't be so hard on yourself. You could pass. I always thought I failed and ended up passing and a pass is a pass and no one can take it away from you.

Good luck with your next semester.

Go Omar!!!

Mrs Studying1

Written by studying1, 31. May 2008 03:06 PM