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Written by wild_rose 2. Jun 2008 07:53 PM

Joy, I am having difficulty controlling my anxiety at the moment. Well it's not a surprise. It will ease by the end of the week. I just wish I wasn't told about the performance review on Friday, I spent the weekend in anxiety HELL. I had to force food into me, each time hold back the urge to bring it up because I was so bloody anxious.

Today I was more anxious than usual at work and got a bit worked up over small tasks like making phone calls. But I managed to get them done and fight through it. I just don't wanna start associating anxiety with the job otherwise I KNOW I'l start dreading going to work and that will be my downfall. I love my job and I really want to succeed in this job, PROVE to myself that I am BETTER than just cleaning toilets and making beds all day. I don't think I have ever wanted to succeed more at something in my entire life.

I guess that's why I am so anxious about this upcoming review, because honestly if I fail...

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Jess Hunny

They have to give you preparation time so hence the warning about the performance review. As I previously said, do something like a SWOT analysis about your achievements, failings (don't be afraid to admit them because we all make mistakes and that is part of learning), training you need to do the job and anything else important you need to bring to the review. Take pieces of your work to show your iniative and it should all be good. Hope this helps with the anxiety. Deep breath and you will be fine. Bet you pass no worries.

Go Jess!!!

Mrs Studying1

Written by studying1, 2. Jun 2008 08:58 PM

Jess

take this time to focus on what you need to do to prepare for the review... do what Mrs Studying1 says ... do a swot analysis... draw up a list of things you have done well...

1. Am punctual
2. Answer the phone in a professional manner
3. am able to speak politely to customers/clients
4. am able to complete assigned tasks efficiently
5. am able to perform all my routine tasks in a timely and effective manner.

I hope they are some ideas to start you off... to take the negative thoughts from your head and reduce the anxiety... if you need to get some valium ... get some... talk to GP or Pdoc... take some deep breaths and listen to yourself... you are talking yourself into your anxiety... so talk yourself out of the anxiety...

focus on the positive...

take care

rgds
cate

Written by cateblack, 2. Jun 2008 09:16 PM

All you need to do at the review is listen and agree, honestly. Defending yourself against any perceived negatives isn't part of it at all so make sure your anxiety doesn't lead to that behaviour. Can you take quarter of a valium, plus put something on your lap, a notebook maybe, and a pen for your hands. These things help with anxiety in an interview situation. Also, you love your job so I hardly see that you will fail. It's a good thing to know the areas where Management may like you to improve as it leaves no room for ambiguity.
Good luck Jess but I don't think you need it.

Written by maple, 3. Jun 2008 10:02 AM

I don't have much different to add. There has been a lot of great advice given to you already.

The only thing I can point out is that you are putting way too much pressure on yourself. Because you love your job so much, I have no doubt that you have been doing it to the best of your ability.

Just show them how passionate you are, and your willingness to work hard...employers love that stuff. Be brave enough to show them your enthusiasm...because that will hold you in good stead

All the best
Spinner

Written by spinner, 3. Jun 2008 12:29 PM

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