Seems I have to explain.....
A page in the diary "poo"
Written by wild_rose 3. Apr 2008 10:53 AM
Well it seems I still need to explain about my work, because yet again I amdoing the wrong thing and need to be even more flexible, it seems that my usual shifts of Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Monday are not being flexible enough...
Stud I know you do mean well but the comment you left in my entry on the 22nd, which I have only just got has upset me and now I feel the need yet again to explain my feeling toward my workplace yet again.
I am flexible, it just after being there for 2 and a half years working EVERY friday, saturday, sunday and monday takes it toll, the only break I got from this was last year when I ended up in hospital and had to take 3 months off.
Also something that I left out, on Easter Monday they called me and left a message wanting me to go in that day... I did call them back, but they already had someone else coming in.
My point is I guess I am flexible, I have worked most weekends now, which is the reason why I hardly have any friends now, and one reason why I hate my life so bad.
Forgive me but I don't appeciate people telling me to be more flexible there when it's obvious I AM, and also why the hell do I have to be more flexible? when they treat me like shit anyway, the fact they haven't called in the past 2 weeks... I really don't give a shit. It's just the feeling of being unemployed I can't stand.
And also yes I think it is wise for me to put the depression aside and focus on finding a job, if I focus on that then I will be incapable of going to job interviews at all, and then I never will get a job, and I'll get even worse.
The two main things right now that are aggrevating my depression is finding a new job so I dont have to go back to that hellhole of a place when they do decide that they suddenly need me. And secondly living at the bf's mum's place, whilst things are going ok here, I don't like it's not my own place.
Stud if I've upset you I didn't mean it, I do value your comments usually, but I just didn't appreciate you taking their side, well at least that's how it felt, and I have been put through too much crap by that place, to have people tell me I'm doing the wrong thing when I am getting treated like dirt