Nervous, anxious, scared and excited
A page in the diary "poo"
Written by wild_rose 4. Jul 2008 10:59 PM
That is just some of what I feel right now.
I haven't written for a while been busy setting myself back on track and finally the hard work and persistance has paid off. We are MOVING out the bf's mum's place into a house tomorrow. Things are almost packed and set up for the big move tomorrow.
I'm scared mainly I guess because of fear of relapsing, being back in my own place there will be a greater chance of falling back in that pit, but at the same time I also am aware of that and know I don't be back there ever again. The past few months have been such hell for me and yet I have managed to fight and I can say now I have won!!
I also had my performance review at work about a month a$go and was told that I had passed my 3 month trial, at the time I had only been there 2 months. Now I have been there 3 months. Things are still good on the work front and I'm still loving my job
I am just so proud of myself right now and I think I ought to be, after all that I have accomplished recently, I have managed to successfully change my entire life and now I am in control, the depression and anxiety doesn't control me anymore, and I will never let it again.