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WHY ME??????????????????????

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Written by lesleyk 16. Jul 2008 09:46 PM

DAMN HAVING DEPRESSION FOR OVER THIRTY YEARS.
Im sick of fighting this .....................

Why is it that even as an adult,I still have to struggle to feel love. A love that comes so easy to others, yet cant seem to penetrate my mind. I had a man who loved me, yet, I didnt always feel his love and his silence at times seemed to rip my heart out.

Ive now set him free, so he can give his love to someone who deserves it, as I sure as hell dont. I love you Hun and always will. Always my special WITCH.

I have struggled all my life to feel as though I am worthy of someone loving me, yet even as a Mum of four grown kids, I still havent found love.
I have two dep daughters who mean the world to me, yet Im still so alone.I love my two girls with all my heart.

I have a gorgeous Dep sister who I adore, yet I cant feel the love she has for me, and hurt her over and over. I love you Jen, so never doubt that.

Who knows if Im lucky I might feel love from someone one day and really be able to appreciate it for all its worth, instead of doubting it and them and then pushing them away with my doubts. Which to me would be priceless.

Take care...
Love Lesley xxx

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Comments from the community:

Dear Les,

I think the answer is, that first... you have got to learn to love you....for all your good and for all your bad.

To learn to accept yourself and love yourself is a real gift to not only yourself, but to those around you whom love you and those you love too.

Maybe read a good book about learning to accept and love yourself, it may help and be a good start. I know there are plenty of books out there dealing with this very issue.

I wish you all the best,

Written by Lori, 17. Jul 2008 02:14 AM

We use that one word 'love' to mean a lot of different things. The only love of which I am certain is the love I feel for my daughter. Other relationships seem to me to require a word or words other than 'love', meaning something similar but not the same.

I wonder how many of our expectations are based simply on an illusion of what 'love' should be.

Written by TerryN, 17. Jul 2008 12:12 PM

Lesley, firstly, thanks for your kind comment to my diary and offer to correspond.

You are a wonderful person, you always have a kind word or positive comment for others. Which makes you a real asset to Depnet.
You are SOOO worthy of love!
I reckon someday soon you will feel love again..when the time is right..love might be just around the corner - and you know how it is- it'll hit you when you least expect it!

All the best.

MAYA

Written by Maya, 17. Jul 2008 10:44 PM

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