Hi Everyone
A page in the diary "I hate myself"
Written by Nouse 13. May 2008 06:51 PM
Hi All,
I am sorry i haven't had the energy to reply to many diaries lately, i have been a bit all over the place.
I have been thinking about what my Psych said to me, and i know it makes sense, but it doesn't make it any easier to deal with. I still feel i am giving up on myself and giving in to his pressure, if i don't speak up. Damn i am so confused and my head is splitting all the time from crap going round and round.
I have had a little bit more sleep, but it is never a solid sleep, always broken which in some ways doesn't help, but i feel it has helped a little being on these meds. Maybe when i have caught up a little, i will be able to think straight and deal with this situation once and for all and be happy with the decision i make.
I know i'm rambling again, and for that i am very sorry, but i have to get this %%%% out of my head and i'm sorry you people have to suffer for it.
Just switch off and don't read my diaries, it is just a useful tool to empty my head of some of the crap.
Anyway, take care all.
Nouse
PS: If anyone is interested, i am on day 26 sober, and still going ok, despite what i have been dealing with for the last week or so, and i know i should be proud of myself, but i know i still have a long way to go and some hard times to get through, so i will hold judjement of myself for a little longer.