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Hi,

It's extremely hard kicking a habit. I too had a slight problem with alcohol and some people can learn to moderate their drinking or some have to quit for good. Either way it's hard and once you stop you realize why you started the habit. It's to mask all the unbearable feelings.

But I can tell you, as each sober day goes by, your mind gets clear. You start to remember how the alcohol made you so very depressed the next day, you remember all the stupid things you have said and done when drunk.

When you realize this it will give you strength to continue to kick the habit. I promise you each day will get better and quitting is a brave thing to do, I applaud you!

Also the reality is, you do have control. You have made an active descision to stop and acknowledge your mistakes and are also working to rectify them, well done.

Bluewave
xxoo

Written by bluewave, 1. May 2008 02:53 PM

Nouse

You have nothing to apologise for. You are being honest in your diary entries and as far as I can tell they are not breaking depnet's diary etiquette and they obviously haven't a problem with them.

You are going through a hard fight and you will get there with the determination you have that you are apologising for your diaries.

Go Nouse!!!

Mrs Studying1

Written by studying1, 1. May 2008 02:59 PM

Nouse

Congratulations on being so honest in all your posts... keep using the diaries to express your feelings... there is no need to hide here... there is no judgement ...

I am so pleased to have met you in chat and on depnet ... and admire your courage. I understand why you need an outlet for your emotions ... it is best not to keep them locked up inside...

keep posting... keep them private if you want but I know I want to be able to support you... and your diaries allow me to do that...

take care and be gentle on yourself...

rgds
cate

Written by cateblack, 1. May 2008 10:13 PM

Hi Nouse,

I don't know about your previous diary entries, but I just wanted to pop by and say thank you to a fellow abstainer in the early stages. I think we can both appreciate just how hard it is to give up the booze, especially when we've used it as a tool for coping with depression.

I too felt very depressed the first week out of rehab, grieving the loss of "my best friend" (alcohol), but that seems to have subsided slightly, thankfully (after nearly 5 weeks). My psychologist told me to stop calliing it "my friend", so we've come up with "The Cave", as it's exciting and appealing standing out the front and just entering, but the deeper you go the darker and scarier it gets! A pretty good analogy for the grog if you were anything like me.

Anyway, great job on staying sober. I think we can really support one another on this one. It's always good to have a friend going through similar things at the same time.

Take care,

Fly xx

Written by fly, 5. May 2008 06:50 PM