AA Meeting
A page in the diary "I hate myself"
Written by Nouse 20. Apr 2008 02:22 PM
Hi All,
I sat in on an online AA meeting this morning, i woke feeling like crap and needed some support.
I am only in my first couple of days of detoxing my body from alcohol and i am shaky, sweaty and throwing up every 15 mins at the moment. Right now i am wondering if i can continue on with this but i know i have to.
They say at these meetings that the only requirement for being there is to have the desire to give up alcohol. I certainly have the desire, but i am not sure i have the courage or the strength to follow it through, but i am willing to give it all i have left in my head to try to beat this addiction.
The people in these meetings are inspirational and i just wish i had half of their courage and determination, it may make it a little easier than it is right at this moment.
I have not had the courage to speak up and share yet, but maybe just maybe one day i will find that courage deep down somewhere.
I have made some good friends on this online group so far and they have all been trying to help me get through these hard few days, i just hope i don't let them down as i have myself and others my whole entire life.
Anyway, though i might share this with you so maybe if i see you in chat and i'm not feeling good, you have a little bit of insight as to what i am going through.
Oh, by the way, if i am in chat, please don't yell, my head is about to burst!!!
Take care
Luv Nouse