Crying Lots
A page in the diary "I hate myself"
Written by Nouse 17. Apr 2008 08:06 PM
Hey all,
I have just got back from a session with my Psych, i hate them so much as it forces me to get into issues that i really don't want to deal with right now, or ever if the truth be known. He is the only person that i have told my life to basically and now he has the job of working through the crap with me and trying to help me.
I don't think he can fix anything, but maybe just to help me deal with things that have been haunting me for many many years. No-one can fix me, i feel i am a lost cause right now, he begs to differ but we agree to disagree on that subject.
I asked him to maybe change my meds, but he thinks there is too much going on in my life right now and it would be too much of a change for me. I told him i cant afford to sink any lower than i am right now, things could get messy.
He is worried as well because my hubby is away until next week with the kids so i have no reason to stay safe. I told him i would stay as safe as i could and that was all i could promise him. He wasn't very happy with that but knew i would run if he made it hard for me.
Anyway, a bottle of scotch is calling me right now so i will go and answer the call.
Take care all
Luv Nouse