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Written by Nouse 28. Mar 2008 12:36 AM

Hi all,

I know i should be feeling better now that i have been in hospital, but i'm not really sure. I know that seems like a cop out but i cant help how my head deals with the outside world. I wish it was easier and everything would just fall into place when you have been locked up for a while, but is not that easy.

I feel very confused at the moment and will have to talk these feelings out with my psych next Thursday when i see him next, but i suppose being able to see that far ahead is a good and very new feeling for me.

I will work on this as much as i can and talk it thru with Doc when i see him next week, if it helps it is a good thing, if not, it is nothing new.

I am so disappointed that the chatroom has been deleted at the moment as sometimes it is nice to be able to get together with people who have similar feelings or who can give you some good advice. I hope the Moderators see fit to put it back on line soon, to keep it there for the people who need it.

Take care all

Luv Nouse

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Comments from the community:

Nouse,

Hang in there girl and everything will fall back into place eventually. Dont be in a hurry, just take it easy. I hope you are over the other day,as i dont want you feeling bad because of me. Dont hate yourself Hun, as youre a nice person and shouldnt be so down on yourself. We are all different and all lovable.

Take care.
Lesley xxx

Written by lesleyk, 28. Mar 2008 08:18 AM

Hi Nouse,

re feeling better having come out of hospital.

I was in hospital 7 weeks last year and yes my expectation was i would be "better" when they let me out.

Some one said to me that it is the same as a physical thing, you come out of hospital as you start to recover. For eg say you had an operation on your knee, you still come out of hospital and on crutches and needing to get your stiches out, you do not come out of hospital well but recovering.

So....take it easy on you you are still recovering..that wound needs to heal a little more, drop the expectations of feeling all better and perhaps pick up on the fact you are recovering.

It helped me a little when I came out, hope you get what I mean.

Take really good care of you, you are special and have a part to play in this world.

Kind regards

Liz

Written by keller, 28. Mar 2008 09:29 AM

Hi Nouse,
I wish you well.
It takes time to sort things out in our heads.
At least you are being taken care of.
Try to be kind to yourself, not put pressure on yourself to 'be better'.
I was in hospital and it took a while to adjust to being in hospital, not getting caught up in other peoples feelings and owning them, and most of all - learning to love myself and forgive myself for not being who I thought I was.
I am still learning to love myself - it will most likely be something I need to do everyday.
I hope you are able to trust that things will clear up for you and be different.

All the Best.

Written by bluefix, 28. Mar 2008 03:11 PM

Hey hun,

Sorry it took me sometime to reply - mood swings. Anyway, I hope you adjust well soon. It takes time to adjust once you get out of hospital.

Hang in there. hun, sorry if this comment is short ordoesnt make sense, i am not thinking straight

Love you heaps

WD

Written by WhiteDove, 28. Mar 2008 10:51 PM

Nouse

I hope your session with the psych went well. Hospital and discharge are always hard to get used to because you are coming out of a secure environment - hospital to your home and perhaps some support with a partner/family.

Be strong and cope as well as you can.

Go Nouse!!!

Mrs Studying1

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