Appointment cancelled
A page in the diary "I hate myself"
Written by Nouse 14. Mar 2008 10:12 PM
I can't believe it, just when i needed my psychiatrist for an urgent appointment, he has to cancel. I know it was a very serious issue that he had to deal with and i am not a huge priority to him, but.....
His secretary rang me twice to let me know what was happening and to reassure me that he was really sorry and he knew i needed him urgently, and to rebook an appointment, but.....
I needed to see him so badly, i feel like i am falling down a hole and can't find anything to grip on to, i just keep slipping and slipping and there is no-one to help...
I can't see him until Monday now which means i have to make it through the weekend, I'm not sure i can hang on much longer, it is too hard. Hubby is home now, so he can take care of the kids now and this leaves me to do what i have to do. The weekend is too long and my appointment is not until 3pm on Monday so it is almost 3 days to get through, too long !!!
I can't tell hubby how i feel as i have been keeping it under my hat for so long and pretending that all is ok to keep everyone happy, he will be so disappointed with me, but i won't have to worry about that, will i....
Take care all,
Luv Nouse