Decisions
A page in the diary "I hate myself"
Written by Nouse 16. Feb 2008 02:36 AM
I think i have made the right decision on resigning from work. It feels like a huge weight off my shoulders, so that has to be a good thing, right?
i am just trying to get through the days without too much trauma and crying, but i just really don't want to be there.
I don't want to leave on bad terms, i have never done that, but i can't stop wondering what the rest of management has been told. It goes round and round in my head. I hate to think other people are basing their decisions about me on what someone else has said, knowing it isn't true.
I can only hope they don't and that they know me better than that. Everyone i have spoken to can't believe what is going on and don't want me to leave, but i can't stay and cop this abuse anymore, for the likes of anybody.
My doctor is going to be proud that i made a decision to help myself for a change so that is something to look forward to my next visit for!! NOT.
Oh well, it's 2am, i had better try to get a little sleep. Sometimes, i am afraid to go to sleep, then other times i don't want to wake up, what's with that?