I did it
A page in the diary "I hate myself"
Written by Nouse 12. Feb 2008 09:32 PM
Well, i finally did it. I resigned from work and though i thought i was going to be physically sick this morning, i went ahead and did it.
My boss hasn't spoken to me all day, but that just cements in my mind that i am doing the right thing.
Going back to work after 5 weeks off sick was a huge thing for me and i was extremely nervous about it. I knew it would be hard facing my boss again but i had to do it sooner or later. Unfortunately, it was even worse than i could have expected, with my boss kicking me out of my office and giving me menial tasks to fill my days. I am devastated that it has come to this after busting my guts for this company for 5 1/2 years, but i can't put my state of mental health on the back burner any longer. It was dragging me down so badly, I was ready to end my life for the sake of my job. I knew it couldn't go on anymore without putting my family or myself at very high risk.
I suppose this has to be regarded as a good day for me, even though i am extremely sad to be leaving. I really enjoyed working in this place and will dearly miss the wonderful people i have been honored to work beside.
3 more weeks of crap and i will be free !!!