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Written by Nouse 11. Feb 2008 08:38 PM

Going back to work today, was worse than i thought it would be, and i didn't think that was possible.
I was feeling so physically sick this morning, i nearly didn't go, but i thought i had let them down enough by taking so much time off with my back. How could they rely on someone like me?
My boss was so off handish this morning, he just wanted to cover his own arse by making me get confirmation from a doctor that i was ok to come back. I was astounded as i thought this sort of stuff only happened if you made compo claims, something i have never done or want to do.
I am so upset at his attitude as I have worked so hard for this company, even taking work home at night to make sure deadlines were met.
I am beside myself at the moment and this is a really big step backwards for me. I thought it would be bad, but not this bad. Seems my thinking that i am useless is right and has now been confirmed by my workplace bosses.
Just another kick in the guts i suppose, but i have had enough. How many kicks can someone stand.

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Nouse

Sorry work wasn't a happy experience.

Hun I can understand your boss wanting to make sure you are okay to work, incase you decide to file a work cover claim - which you should do if it happened at work. A medical clearance is a normal thing with rehabilitating an injured worker back to work - I used to be a Rehabilitation Coordinator when I worked and we got clearances for the smallest accidents to make sure we were covered and the injured work was covered and in case a workcover claim was made at a later stage.

Hope tomorrow is better for you.

Go Nouse!!!!

Studying1

Written by studying1, 11. Feb 2008 09:54 PM

hey nouse you did it you fronted up and went to work you shold be proud of yourself being in so much pain must be hard but you went that fantastic i hope i can do the same

Written by Deleted_User, 11. Feb 2008 10:46 PM

I enjoyed meeting you on chat, you are a kind and loving person. I think it took a lot of courage for you to go to work, congrats for going.
Hugz Patricia xx

Written by Deleted_User, 12. Feb 2008 02:46 PM