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Feeling a little better.......i think

A page in the diary "I hate myself"
Written by Nouse 13. Sep 2008 10:55 PM

Hi all,

I know i haven't been here lately to keep up with what's been going on and i know i have been a bit hard to get along with lately.....grumpy even....and i am really sorry for that.

I have not been in a good place, but feel i may just be seeing signs of light....hopefully the right ones!! I have been seeing my psychiatrist at least twice a week to get thru some of this crap going round and round and round in my head, and maybe....just maybe i think he maybe starting to make some headway with it all.

I shake, i shiver, i cry and i pace the room.....but he says it is all helping...

Some days i come out of there and don't really know who i am, but i'm still alive and kicking so i suppose in the big scheme of things it has to be a good thing. I think i would like to get back to some sort of "normality" in my life...i just have to work out what it is. It is going to take a lot more hard work to get me where i need to be...but i know i have to do it....or not be here anymore....those are my choices.

Anyway, i will not bore you all anymore...just a short note to let you know i am still around......if anyone cares...and want to thank everyone who has shown so much support while i have been struggling. I sincerely appreciate your thoughts and good wishes.

Luv Nouse

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Comments from the community:

Nouse.............

Have missed seeing you around and am pleased tht you are back with us. Hope all continues to go well for you. Hopefully we can catch up one day.
All the best.
Lesley

Written by lesleyk, 13. Sep 2008 11:16 PM

Hi Nouse

Nice to see you around again. Stay well and I am thinking of you.

Dolly

Written by dolly, 13. Sep 2008 11:35 PM

I think that once you have had a mental illness, normality flies out the window. Not because we bear some curse which makes normality impossible, but because we learn so much about ourselves and the world that we know too much to return to the normality. This is perhaps a good thing and a bad thing. Good in that we come out the other side understanding more, but bad in that it makes a turbulent time more unstable. It is ok to not know who you are anymore, but you will find yourself again, and the light will shine.

I'm sorry to hear you have been/are struggling so badly. I'm thinking of you and hope you get through this horrible patch.

Written by babz, 13. Sep 2008 11:44 PM

Hi nouse
so glad things are a little better for u, please take care.
((((((((((((((((((nouse))))))))))))))))))))

Love B1

Written by bananas, 13. Sep 2008 11:55 PM

Nouse

it is good to hear from you... and you are doing good with the psych... it is hard but you are doing it... thanks for all your support over the past... you have lots of wisdom...

take care

rgds
cate

Written by cateblack, 14. Sep 2008 12:02 AM

Hey Nouse,
So glad to read that things are becoming a little easier for you.
It takes alot of strength to keep going at times, but please remember we all care about you and will always be here to offer you friendship and support.
Take care of yourself and one day at a time
Chat soon
Lynne

Written by chookie67, 14. Sep 2008 12:41 AM

I have missed seeing you about here. I know life can be crap but please hang in there, you have so many people pulling for you.You probably dont believe this right now but you will make it, time is for you and you learning to like yourself again.And thank you for being their for me over the pst crappy 8 months. TC

Written by grannie, 14. Sep 2008 01:49 AM

I'm glad to hear that you are seeing things in a more positive light. Look forward to meeting you again in the chat room. Terry

Written by TerryN, 14. Sep 2008 11:59 AM

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