Up and down.,not feeling feelings., Kinesiology., Dreams
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Written by bluefix 26. May 2008 02:24 PM
Have been up and down again.
I had kinesiology last wednesday and it was a really interesting experience.
Ive realised that what is going on with me is something I need to face everyday, whether I feel like it or not. I can only do the best that I can.
I was hoping that the kinesiology was going to actually heal my depression.
Now I know that I need to do whatever I can and to keep on - keeping on.
I find one thing about meds, I do take them.. that I do not really feel anything - it kind of blocks my emotions.. I can feel the depression - whatever feeling that is .. but not much else.
The last 2 days Ive been in bed, and I think its a mixture of things.... I may even give up alcohol for a while - just to see if there is a positive difference.
I need to learn to not be 'self critical ' something the kinesiologist said was stuck in my body.. so to have self praise or kinder thoughts about myself.
Ive had alot of bad dreams about my parents, always fighting with them. Am not sure what to make of it.
I am living with them currently - will be moving out in the next few months. Wondering if things will be settling then? Different environment.. ?? They say dreams tell you subconscious things..
Well, I have a few things to think about ..