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Written by bluefix 10. May 2008 05:16 PM

Regardless of the depression, one of my friends said to me .. Nikki.. you need to take it easy on yourself.. be kind.. not judgemental or hard on yourself..

I have been going backwards.. the last 3 days.. I think it has to do with me clinging onto my parents.. they will be moving in a few months, and I currently live with them - so in reality I need to work and save - and I have avoided work the last 3 days.

I will get a doctors certificate to cover myself legally for work.

And mentally move on from here.. what is done is done.
I cannot change the last 3 days, and the choices I have made.. only to choose again tommorrow.

All of us are amazing and wonderful.. sometimes we are unable to see it. We are though. Even with our challenges, whatever they may be.

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Blue

I think your friend is right - we all need to be easy on ourselves.

Hope next week is better for you and you get the medical certificate and work is safe for you despite the two warnings. Please be careful about work. It does sound good for you when you are well enough to go.

Go Blue!!!

Mrs Studying1

Written by studying1, 10. May 2008 05:40 PM

Blue,

I am so proud of you hun. even though you had those rough days, you are trying to stay positive and get better.

baby steps blue.

love
wd

Written by WhiteDove, 10. May 2008 07:39 PM

Bluefix...

I think I told you in the last post you needed to find out why you were self sabotaging with work... so you did ... well done... your parents leaving is a huge issue... and I know i would be terrified... in my mind you just want to be a child taken care of by your parents forever... so if you can't work you can't take care of yourself... so your parents can't leave you because they need to take care of you...

believe me i know this problem... and I am 50 ... and my parents are dead... and still i want to be taken care of...

you need to talk to your pdoc and mental health care professionals about this issue... not that I seem to have been helped much with it...

take care... it is a harsh world out there but there are some soft softs to land if you fall...

rgds
cate

Written by cateblack, 10. May 2008 07:39 PM

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