Hi all.. an entry on whats been happening
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Written by bluefix 11. Jul 2008 01:11 AM
Hi all,
Its amazing .. our minds.. the way they work or dont!
I guess what I am trying to understand or really 'accept' is .. thought patterns..
I have been working an extra day a week.. doing a repetitious, fast paced job ( call centre )
For about the last 2 weeks or so... I have been having racing thoughts, and I am trying to just observe my thoughts and let them go.
My behaviour has been feeling quite wound up.. quite edgy.
I put it down to a few things
1. extra shifts at work
2. trying to do too much at work eg take alot of calls.
3. shallow breathing.. not taking in nice deep breaths.
4. I have been using a towel rolled up to support my lower back and that has been making me lean forward which impedes my breathing.
What I have noticed is how I feel about myself when I start to have these thoughts.. I feel less than.
I know this 'less than' feeling is just that a 'feeling'.It is not truth.
This is what I am going to remind myself of.. that whatever thoughts I am having they are just thoughts.. I can observe them and let them go. My feelings can be attributed to alot of things.. not enough sleep = me feeling irritable. I am definitely going to look at myself being 'more than' from now on.
HOpe you are doing what you can when you can.. all the very best deppies.